And the swing mood won’t go away.
I cook last night, i try to distracted this overthinking, the feel of guilty, the feel of abandon, all the unnecessary thought.
I cook for my friends. I try to make myself too tired, so i can get sleep earlier.
It just didn’t work.
It does makes me too emotional. And I’m not intent to.
And I try too hard.
And somehow it didn’t work.
I yelled at work today. Honestly, i didn’t realize until My Boss say “Why are you being emotional.” And it kinda slap me. That is not my intention.
I guess there are things that need some time, oh well, need a lot of time to get healed.
It might need days,
months,
or like me ..
need years.
