“If your heart hurts a little after letting go of someone, that’s okay. It just means that your feelings were genuine. No one like ends and no one likes pain 🙂 But sometimes we have to put things that were once good to an end after they turn toxic to our well-being. Not every new beginning is meant to last forever. And not every person who walks into your life is meant to stay. ” – Najwa Zebian
I have enough crying. I have enough trying. I was enough holding emotion and trying to understand those who don’t even try to understand me 🙂 It’s not like I’m not trying, everyday I try to brings down my expectations, trying to give you a beautiful fake smile, and today i finally give up. Dropped my fake smile as a tear ran down my cheek and I whispered myself “I can’t do this anymore, this is too hurt .. this heart can not hold any longer to have such a pain everyday”
I did what i think is the most reasonable thing to do. It’s the most stupid thing that i’ll ever do. It does. And i feel bad about it. I really am. And why should i feel bad about this 😦 Why should I ? 😦 Because when it hurts someone you care, somehow, your heart is also hurt 😦
Was it relieve you ? A less yes but more not really. Things will never be the same. I can not turn back time and hoping that everything is ok, because no it’s not. And this is hurt. It’s really hurt but I realize it hurts more to hold on.
I apologize because I want to share the sadness that i have. I apologize because I want this pain should not only belong to me. I apologize for making tears down not only from my eyes. I apologize for sharing stories that ripped your heart. I never want to do this, but I can not pretend anymore. I just can’t. And I’m really sorry.